The UNposted Post 

There are roughly 30 (thirty) posts uncomfortably sitting in the drafts folder of Mathunzi Macdonald’s personal blog account. Ridiculous?

There are things I have been unable to speak openly about for fear of ridicule and possible public shame. There are topics I realized I had very little interest in and would be posting, well for the sake of posting. There are things I could have shared that had the potential to label me a complete “sham” as they would simply be depicting my “social media appropriate life”.

The launch of my website http://www.mathunzi.com came with a promise of regular blog posts about everything Mathunzi. I assured friends and family that I was ready to wear my scars proudly and share in my “Johannesburg City Life” and all the various things that I do work wise and in my leisure time. What I did not anticipate was yet another dramatic twist in my lifes story that would leave me seriously wounded. That wound would be left gaping for cups of salt to be splattered inside throwing me into blissful constant agony.

The launch of my site in itself was, to put it mildly, a MIRACLE.

It would surprise even the developer himself to know that the means to compile content and afford his services, literally streamed from heavens windows. Poor health sent my photoshoots soaring into black holes leaving me indebted and without a single pretty picture to continue the public display of “I am fine, but not if you look close enough”. Dazed by my circumstance, I fell into habits of mismanagement of funds, neglect of studies and business development (let us not speak of the neglegence of self, we will need a bit more time on that), disregard of good health, grooming or/and an ordered environment (OCD took leave on most days). The short of it; Things were a mess, I was a mess.

Two therapists have shared common opinion regarding my failure to grieve and process traumatic events, having suffered quite a few in a short space of time. Knowing that this process is necessary, I still have barely begun. So how could I possibly write about something I have not yet experienced? Instead I would continue recycling pep talks which are constructed around what I assume my readers may want to hear, may sympathise with or what may blind them to how devastating certain realities really are. What is the point then? Why am I the “conversationalist” having this conversation if I am not willing to HAVE the conversation?

For instance, the cutting of my hair and re-design of my first tattoo (yes brethren, I am inked).               These were not fashion statements, neither was it testiment to my Malawian genealogy which allows for rapid hair growth in a preferred texture or the seemingly new found “liberal rebellion” exercised within the church by openly flaunting ink and piercings. I simply wasn’t and probably still am not ready, to discuss in a meaningful and purposeful manner, what carrying the lifeless body of your baby until it is surgically removed really feels like and spells out for the rest of your life. Or the symbolic meaning behind the removal of the product of the hair journey you started only because he said he preffered it on you. How you trusted it would be part of a new beginning that never came and how life not so politely shoved your nose in the dust and said “Start again, and please leave that mess on your head behind. I doubt you can afford to maintain it anyway with that odd textured curly hair without the support of a suitor”.

Call me a liar however if I deny that I remain blessed and well set up, and that I should have less excuses around the commitment to these conversations.

I have lived a relatively charmed life in the greater scheme of things. I am surrounded by beautiful beings who indulge me in genuine support, love and memorable shared experiences. I am blessed with talents, intent and a know how in multiple fields. “Broke” remains relative as I still enjoy certain luxuries and perks. (Necessary)Opportunities have been made available to me by both man and the universe. I am able to better discern as far as who is FOR me and who is simply there to add colour to my already colourful life. And I have learnt to have a very different kind of conversation with God.

I have spent a lot of time asking God to fix IT and not to fix ME. I have asked Him to help me forgive him or her and forgot to mention how I need to forgive myself. I prayed (or rather recited the popular petition text) for my daily bread and failed to simply ask for assistance in meeting my blog deadlines.(We only talk to God about serious business huh? In our best English?)                                      God had become some mystical figure and not my father and friend. I had to reintroduce my self and allow Him to do the same. My conversations with Him now make for better conversations with YOU.

May I kindly not make any promises at this point but assure you that I want to be in constant, honest, purposeful conversation with you.

My site http://www.mathunzi.com, developed by Sibisi Media Group, will be updated as regularly as possible to keep you up to date with what is happening in my life and the work that I will be doing and progress I hope to make. It will open a window of communication to explore what can be achieved in collaboration in the various fields of work and play.

Thembekile Tsoari, with the assistance of other artists, will help document the interesting and exciting moments in my life through photography and videography. Most of these engagements may be found on my Instagram accounts, my personal account being @thunzy_

I will be healing, learning, living, laughing and loving. I will be going through this life thing understanding that I only get to do it ONCE. I will be having conversations with YOU.

Here, 29 August 2017 at 03:30 – POSTED.

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Chad Alexander – Asaman

31 year old musician and music director Chadwin Alexander sits down with the Asaman team and shares his story 

Could you share your definition of what a man is in a short paragraph 

A man is someone who keeps his word, at all costs…even though it hurts. Who makes it up to someone he involuntarily disappoints. Some one who takes pride in his work and always looks for solutions instead of focusing on the problems, no matter how tough they may seem. I was taught never to leave the house looking like you just woke up, so I think a man should always smell good, look good, and be courteous and polite and be gentleman like at all times. A man is someone who never gives up on a dream, despite what the world says and what society deems viable and safe, even if his family is included in that society. A man always puts the well being of someone else before himself. Contrary to popular belief, I believe a real man is one who is not ashamed or afraid to cry, not for the odd “rom com” but when its necessary to cry. A man is one who should be meek and humble enough to say “Im Sorry” when he has to, gentle enough to pay attention to the little things in life that count and strong enough to stand up for what is right in the face of adversity, and no matter what people may say or gossip about. A real man is not afraid to cry for help, on his knees in prayer.

Do you feel you were exposed to such men in your life growing up, if so kindly share who they were and their impact on your life


If there was one man that always had my attention, that man was Rocky BalBoa (Sylvester Stallone’s character in a boxing movie for those unfortunate ones who have no clue of that movie!!!?!?!?!) Jokes aside though, my grandfather was that man… IS that man!! A man who always reminds
me of how important God is, and that knowledge is power. I later deduced that knowledge is only power in the hands that understand how to turn that knowledge into Wisdom Power. My grandfather was the consummate gentleman, the benchmark of style and etiquette and one of the most Godly, God fearing men I’ve ever come across. He is definitely responsible in defining and grooming me into the man you see today.

Kindly share what you do on a professional level on a day to day basis


Before, when asked this question, I used to get befuddled at how to answer this question, but as time passed, I found that the easiest answer was to say that I am a musician, in its entirety. To simplify it, I am a professional pianist, what I do the most and what I am now, amongst many other things, is a Musical Director for a few South African artists and television shows and the occasional gospel show/concert
.

Does music integrate into your personal space as much as we see it impact you in professional spaces?


Most definitely!!! I am practically immobile at home if I don’t have music playing in the background. When I wash the dishes there’s music, when I shower/bath there’s music, when I do the washing there’s music, when I fall asleep there’s music, when I’m driving
, there’s music. I hope that answers your question.

Do you feel a religious outlook influences morality and what are your own moral convictions?


I do believe that any religious outlook can influence ones moral compass in both good and bad ways, hence the Wisdom Power I spoke of earlier. It is my strong belief that an individual needs to make up his or her own mind on what is morally and ethically right and wrong, no matter what religious background may be brought forward. This is actually in my opinion a very serious discussion you are raising here… there are so many facets to this question, maybe that’s for another blog hehehe (⏎ am I allowed to do that??) Coming back to the final part of your question, my moral convictions might appear to be simple and archaic, but I believe that when you can truly put another before yourself and truly apply the thirteenth chapter from a book I like to read called 1Corinthians; (a chapter in the Bible which depicts Gods way to love people), to every culture, every creed, no matter your religious standing and ethnicity, so much right can be done and so much wrong can be averted.

They say  ‘when you look good you feel good.’ We know you to be conscious of your appearance; does it affect how you feel about yourself?


An emphatic YES!!! I must start off by saying that I’m quite new to the fashion movement. I’ve always been known to possess my own sense of style, and thank goodness its evolved over time, cause when I look back, I just laugh at my fashion sensibility. I just wear what I’m comfortable in and
what feels right for that day. I think you dress the way you feel, and vice versa. I look at it as my social right, my humanitarian responsibility to look presentable at all times, for all occasions, whether I’m playing tennis, golf, squash, or cycling or even when I’m going for a walk in a park. I was raised to always look the part, even if you’re an amateur hahahahaha (⏎oops I did it again!?!?)

Do you wish to be a father someday and what would you want to teach your children?

This is a sensitive topic for me, but to hit straight to the question I would say YES. I would like to be a father, but more importantly I would love to be a great dad someday.

I see you said “children” I think lets start with ONE first and then take it slow from there hey!!?? So, what I would teach my “child” is to dream big just like daddy, cause I think having ONE wife and ONE child IS DREAMING BIG, let alone children and a few other wives!!! I digress, my child would know and understand that God and family and friends are important. I honestly think the only way to teach my child or pass on any good values I’ve learned, and warn them about the negatives and the “not so good” tendencies I was subjected to as I grew up, would be to show him/her how to love, and for me to LEAD by example. I do not want to be the parent who says “Do As I Say, Not As I Do”…I want to instill in them to “Do As God Says, And Practice As He Has”
In terms of roles in society, where would you place women? And how do you feel women should be treated in respect to this?



I would place women right beside all men in every way and in every sphere. I have a high regard for women in society, this respect I have gained for all women, was by seeing my mother and grandmother raise their children in times of great adversity and circumstance. I come from a broken home, so I know the pain and struggles I see in so many young people I come across today. That certainly did not stop my mother and grandmother from raising their children the best way they knew how. Yes they made mistakes, who doesn’t, but such strength I have seen in them that we all see -or may not see- in all women around the world, fighting and praying for their children and clawing and struggling
in the face of great adversity and insurmountable circumstances. I am proof that those seemingly insurmountable circumstances were NOT insurmountable AT ALL… and only through a mothers sheer will and faith in God, raised a man like me, and as a man, …“I will honour my mother and father so my days might be plentiful on this earth…”


Determination, coupled with a passion for what you do, seems to be essential when overcoming the negative effects of the unfortunate parts of your upbringing. Thus allowing you to fully explore your potential whilst creating a better foundation for the generation to come. 

  Circumstances and negativity can be a stone that breaks or builds. Iv chosen the latter. 

Photography by Aaron & Hur 

Simphiwe Kulla – Asaman 

Asaman meets with 27 year old musician and producer Simphiwe Kulla. A member of the fusion band The Muffinz. Here is what he had to share  

How would you define manhood?

 Manhood is a responsibility for all men who want to define themselves worthy of being man.

Has a career in the music industry always been your first choice or did you have different prospects?

I probably was the most confused kid around my peers. My grades were always sub-standard till about grade 9(std 7), and even then when my grades improved, I still didn’t know where I’d end up in life. I always dreamt of a lot of things, but felt some of my dreams and aspirations were influenced by my surroundings and society. A reality I battled with for three years in my varsity life. It hit me hard, so hard I sought counselling. Music was always there, a gift God gave me to keep me happy and sane. It just got to a point where it was a no brainier for me. So yes, I think music was my first choice. I just kept avoiding it because of how my surroundings were setup. Music wasn’t an encouraged form of income or career.             

How did your family, especially your father respond to your decision to pursue a music career 

Firstly, I think my parents didn’t do too bad with me. Actually, I think they did great, especially my dad. But I don’t think he understood how much of an impact he had on me as a person. He inspired me in ways he wasn’t aware of. It’s like uploading a video on YouTube and not realising how viral it might go. When it does go viral, you try your best to avoid the attention it comes with. I think that is how my dad raised me. He wasn’t for the whole music idea, society had successfully influenced him in thinking it wasn’t a proper and fruitful career. But yet, he bought me all the music I desired in the world. He supported me with my dreams and all my extra curricular activities as a kid. He bought me musical instruments. He flew me across the world to experience life in its totality. He didn’t know it, but he gave me a story to tell in my music. He helped stretched my influences and inspiration. He shaped me to have the mind for music production. Definitely a man worthy of the title father.            

Do you feel or believe children are well exposed to the Arts in this country? 

No not entirely. I feel like a lot more is done in selling sports, and economic benefits. It’s deemed better for you to represent your country in sports than in the arts. Funny thing this, ’cause Europeans and Americans are known more for their everlasting artwork. Even under colonisation, us Africans were taught more about the west’s art and its history as opposed to the random sportsman or sportswoman. It’s quite ridiculous actually. Back to the arts.  ‘Celebrity’ is more the focus than the actual art. Peoples skills are not being developed because the plastic world is what’s being sold to them. There is a huge gap. This is a matter that is very personal to me. Not enough is being done.   

Women tend to be objectified in the industry, what are your thoughts on this?

I think any real man who loves their lady dearly wouldn’t want her to be objectified… This topic is quite sad, in the sense that woman find a liking to being objectified. To be honest I even find myself liking it too. Sex sells, that’s the force, if you are not for it, you are considered conservative, therefore you are not progressive,hehe, ya ne! Self appreciation has been twisted. I don’t think I’ve also quite grasped my head around this topic. I’ll don’t think I have all the answers in life generally. I really don’t believe what society says is the end all and be all though. I can’t stand for something I don’t believe in. I fear for the day God blesses me with daughter.      

Do you think, with the values you currently live by, you could be what we term ‘a good father’, and how so?

Good father. I think only my future child can truly determine that. All I can do is try my best. But yes, I do believe I’m grounded enough to be a father. But nowadays that doesn’t seem to matter much, we focus too much on the expectation part of parenting forgetting  that this human we are raising is a person in their own right. All parents can do really is guide. Children will determine on their own where they want to place their beliefs. 

Rest assured, I’ll be going into fatherhood with the experience of being an uncle ;  the experience of being raised up by an amazing father ; and having the ever so good and faithful Lord by my side.  

 Do you participate in any social development programs for the younger generation and how do you feel about the Asaman campaign? 

I used to. I loved teaching others about music. Did it for about three years straight. I’ve stopped to concentrate on my career. As for the Asaman campaign, its needed. A lot of the wrongs in our society can be rectified by men who can take a stand and be progressive in the betterment of our current trying times. We need to drive ideas of a “good man” and not just an “ok man”.

Have your religious beliefs been compromised by the lifestyle adopted when pursuing such a career?

No my beliefs are still the same, from the foundations of the Seventh Day Adventist Church. My lifestyle isn’t lavish or plastic. It’s still similar to the days of my upbringing.    

Please share any other things you would like to pursue and how you feel they would benefit you and those around you? 

I’m very proud of what I’ve achieved so far. I’m still going to be pursuing other avenues of music and the industry. I’m still finding myself in this big and scary world of music, it’s going to be a beautiful journey ahead. I’m currently in school furthering my studies in my passion. Education is something necessary to us all. Knowledge is a treasure for me.  
The fear to pursue what we are passionate about is a common error, driven by possible ridicule. Ridicule of this nature usually comes from those closest to us, who have chosen to only believe what is true to them. Music also seems to be a popular topic in the Asaman space. I wonder why 

 I pay attention to every single detail in my life. Especially in my work and interactions with people. It helps me to be a step ahead and to appreciate the beauties of life 

Photography by Aaron & Hur  

Mpendulo Sibanyoni – Asaman

Asaman sits down with 27 year old Mpendulo Sibanyoni. A civil engineer by trade.A musician & vocal arranger. He tells his story 

 
 Tell us about where you were born and raised and the transition when moving permanently to South Africa.

I was born and raised in Swaziland, Manzini to be exact. I was the first child my parents were blessed with, and I spent about ten years of my childhood in Swaziland before we relocated to South Africa; so most of my fondest childhood memories involve life in Swaziland, surrounded by a lot of family and friends. Transitioning into South Africa was mostly fun (as it would be for any ten year old boy), but it did come with its challenges. I lost familiarity and had to adapt to a new school, people who had a different influence, new languages, a harsher climate and many other factors. But most of all I no longer had access to my extended family, who played a vital role in defining life for me back in Swaziland. Looking back, I can say that the move was good for me. At the time, South Africa offered more fertility and greater prospects for growth particularly in education and the arts (specifically music, which I had a keen interest towards). The social climate was diverse, and diversity almost always offers a platform for expanding views on the cultural systems that define a society. I appreciated that.

 You have a tight knit group of friends. Do you feel the values shared between you are positive and if so, kindly share a few

Indeed. The positivity of the value system shared between my friends and I is the one thing that has been responsible for keeping us together for so long. I met most of my close friends in high school and we have managed to sustain the friendships throughout different stages of life. That has been the case because we are each others’ keeper. None of us can suffer any misfortune whether physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually with each others’ support. We rely on each other for the growth and well-being of each other. We have our silly times, when we just become typical boys but it is all in good taste and within the boundaries of the law! 

What led to your decision to/of becoming civil engineer and are you happy with and in your chosen profession?

I’ve been through many stages of wanting to become many things in life! I think I have the capability to handle anything that I would’ve chosen to do, engineering was the lucky pick lol! But having a creative and scientifically keen mind, engineering was a good fit. I also liked it because of its dynamism. There are always new challenges presented by whatever situation requires an engineering approach, and its quite stimulating to be at the core of overcoming those challenges.

As a musician what are you most passionate about in the field?

Harmony! Harmony has always intrigued me. Particularly that offered by outfits such as Take 6, The Real Group, The singers Unlimted and many more. I’ve had a natural inclination to this type of sound from a very young age. I grew up listening to a lot of music, vocal music to be exact, and the church I belong to fosters the practice of vocal music. I reached a point where I longed to form my own path in arranging vocals, influenced by the kind of music I grew up listening to, and my love and appreciation for good harmony has led me to some interesting and worthy discoveries!

Do you feel or believe music is a medium that could be used for purposes of regeneration?

Indeed. The effects of music are vast. And when channeled into a progressive energy music can achieve what politicians and builders of society sometimes fail to achieve. More so, it can be used in collaboration to the afore-mentioned in order to drive the world in a certain direction. Music has the power to shape thoughts and ideas, if that positivity is reflected through the music that is consumed by society, a change is inevitable. 

What is the relationship between you and your father like? Is there a dynamic that you would rather avoid if you were given a chance at fatherhood?

 My dad and I have a very functional relationship! He is a quiet, reserved man, very realistic in thought (much like me). He has really done all that he could have done to ensure that my siblings and I are never at a lack, and his support has gone above and beyond monetary measures. I think he could’ve been more affectionate with us, although I understand why that wasn’t his inclination. He grew up in a time and place that didn’t encourage much affection between parents and children. That in no ways diminishes his abilities as a father, but that’s one thing I will strive to do differently when I’m given the opportunity to be a father. It’s amazing what physical and emotional affection can do for children

Certain behaviors tend to be justified by the notion that society has evolved and become more liberal. What are your thoughts on this theory and the possible effects of such systems.

 Society is expected to evolve and change; that change is driven by advancements in technology, scientific discoveries, the media, education and information, and other factors. It is true that these changes have had an influence on the mental state of society, but I do not think that these changes should affect our beliefs, the moral laws. Truth is absolute, it is the one thing that remains constant in a changing world. Humanity needs to remain grounded; the changes should be for our growth as opposed to our detriment. The danger is that this will have an effect on future generations and we will see certain undesirable traits being propagated and adopted as normal behavior. 

 Kindly share what 3 things you wish men and young boys knew and lived by

•The fear of the lord is the beginning of wisdom; seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all these things will be added unto you. That’s the bible. and that should be the starting point for every man

•The state of manhood cannot be proved by display of physical power and dominance. Let your attitude towards the things you’ve been called to steward be a show of your manhood. Build mental muscle, progress comes better that way.

•Peer pressure isn’t a phenomenon that is only experienced by teenagers. It’ll last your entire life. Don’t buckle under the pressure, remember that you are running your won race so set your own pace and don’t become the byproduct of someone else’s choices. Forge your own way.


Intelect is appealing. Thought out comment and action in a time of poor and lazy thinking. Passion in an art designed to be a universal language with no limits to its reach. I have know Mpendulo for a while but I was unaware of just how deep these waters run. Never let the ‘quiet’ ones fool you 

 I am my brothers keeper. It is every man’s duty to build the next man in order to the social and moral image of men that has been tarnished by a lack of accountability amoungst many other things

Photography by Aaron & Hur 

Karabo Moeketsi – Asaman 

Asaman sits down with 29 year old Karabo Moeketsi. He forms 1/5 of the popular South African fusion band The Muffinz. 

  
What did you aspire to be growing up? 

I wanted to be a musician and/or evangalist.

Who stood as a father or male figure in your life and do you feel their influence was positive? 

My uncle Mokwena. He did a great job. He taught me how to drive like a maniac and also how to run away from girls (hahaha, as if) 

Did moving to Johannesburg change your outlooks in anway, regarding how you approach life? 

Yes it did. Jozi is the fast paced life. Taught me how to think on my feet. It taught me that I need to be grounded in the world. This is also where I found my girl who is now about to be my on going partner. 

What so you do on a professional level? 

I am a professional singer and bass player. I am also the managing director for a technology company called Happaro. 

Are you happy with what you do or do you have different prospects now? 

I am happy. God has been faithful. The time to spread the 3rd angels message is soon approaching and I am getting ready. I can not wait to go home. 

I know you to be extremely religious. Have you ever been in a position where your beliefs conflicted with something you aspired to achieve? 

Well, I always make it very, very, very clear where I stand, and its either you take me and my beliefs or you don’t take me at all. God always does the rest. 

Religious practice is no longer common practice. Do you feel it should be revisited by young men, and why? 

Unfortunately or fortunately the time we are in is prophetic. These things must come to pass before Christ comes back. Our duty as God’s chosen people is to spread God’s word throughout the world.

Tell me about the ‘warrior races’ that you take part in, and briefly share your views on fitness and health

I like things 😂 Fitness races like the Jeep warrior do more than just test your fitness. It is about disciple, perseverance and heart. What do you give when you have nothing to give. Those disciples build your character in the everyday world. Plus its so much fun. I love the outdoor adventure and extreme sport life. It is refreshing! Decreases stress levels 300%. Healthy living is something that is found in the bible… When we are healthy we are happier; we save lots of money and we can better do the work of the Lord.
Karabo has shown immense interest in the Asaman campaign. His affiliation is not only appreciated but commended. Very few people are passionate about good causes. I will forever be in awe of his unapologetic and openly expressive religious stance. If only we were all so definite in our choices…  

  ‘I am a perfectionist who is not a perfectionist; I am very relaxed but I believe there is a time for everything. No one said I cant have fun while doing it. I take everything I do seriously and put my all into it.’ – Karabo 

Photography by Aaron & Hur